Thursday, January 13, 2011

Time to Confess My Secret

Aside from immediate family and a small handful of folks, I decided to keep a little secret and it has been weighing heavily upon me. I thought, no sense worrying everyone else if there was nothing to worry about which, as it turns out, there's nothing to worry about. Either way, we would be the best parents we know how and love our kids with the best love we could given them. I would've fessed up, but I needed to be able to process it all independently. So here it goes...

Bradley and I have been afraid that Benjamin might be blind or have very limited vision. The handful of folks that we talked to about our fears are also people that noticed his visual deficits. And not only compared to his brother, but on a typical developmental scale, he just hasn't been responding visually as one might anticipate. For example, when you try to look him in the eye, he looks away, he doesn't track objects within his field of vision, etc. Due to our history with battling insurance companies, I was quick to schedule an appointment and request the referral. Thankfully (sort of), there was no fight needed. The pediatrician did a brief exam and felt that we should have him looked at by a specialist. As one might imagine, this only raised our level of concern and anxiety.


Well, today we had our appointment with the eye doctor and Benjamin passed with flying colors! The neural pathways are communicating with one another, the optic nerve is relaying information appropriately. There is some far sightedness, but that's completely typical for a 2 month old. The doctor suggested his delay was due to his low birth weight (5 lb 9oz.) and that he will catch up eventually. We've been praying fervently and God answered our prayers.

Prior to the appointment I had planned on taking pictures to explain our appointment. However, I only captured 1 shot which I took prior to us leaving the house. The appointment wound up being a whirlwind of activity which required me to hold Benjamin the entire time leaving no opportunities to take pictures. So, I'll leave you with pictures of our little guy...sleeping peacefully and probably thinking how foolish we were to be so afraid.

10 comments:

Ilisa Ailts said...

Wow, so sorry that you had that stress! I am relieved to hear it is going well.

Mel said...

I think you were very sensible to act on your concerns. Vision is so important, and if a problem is caught early I'm sure it helps. Hope you can sleep a little better now- as well as any mother or 3 littlies can anyway!

Catalina said...

When my son was born, I had that fear for at least 3 months, and other did too. We did not want to verbalize it, but I knew that we all were thinking it. He would not respond to things, never turn and look at people. But as quirky as it was - he is fine. He sees just fine. It is very strange, isn't it?

Jenee said...

Praise God! So glad everything is alright :) Beautiful family!!!

stephanie said...

Goodness,I'm so sorry this is what you've been dealing with. You must have been so worried. so relieved and thanking God Benjamin's eyes are fine!!!

love the pics, so unconcerned, sleeping like an angel.

Zoey's mom said...

Never ,ever would think you were foolish.So very happy that sweet Benjamin check out fine and your worried momma heart can rest!

Melissa M said...

I'm so sorry you've been worried about his vision, but am thrilled to hear all is well!

Rochelle said...

So glad for great news on his eye exam and your worries are gone! Yeah God!

Michelle said...

So glad prayers were answered and everything is ok!

Just catching up on your blog - the boys are adorable and getting so big already! Love the picture outtakes with the 3 kiddos on the chair. And I have trouble just trying to get decent pics of my two! :)

The Byrd's Nest said...

Oh bless your little Mommy heart..you must have been so worried. Praise God for the answers from the doctor.