Aside from immediate family and a small handful of folks, I decided to keep a little secret and it has been weighing heavily upon me. I thought, no sense worrying everyone else if there was nothing to worry about which, as it turns out, there's nothing to worry about. Either way, we would be the best parents we know how and love our kids with the best love we could given them. I would've fessed up, but I needed to be able to process it all independently. So here it goes...
Bradley and I have been afraid that Benjamin might be blind or have very limited vision. The handful of folks that we talked to about our fears are also people that noticed his visual deficits. And not only compared to his brother, but on a typical developmental scale, he just hasn't been responding visually as one might anticipate. For example, when you try to look him in the eye, he looks away, he doesn't track objects within his field of vision, etc. Due to our history with battling insurance companies, I was quick to schedule an appointment and request the referral. Thankfully (sort of), there was no fight needed. The pediatrician did a brief exam and felt that we should have him looked at by a specialist. As one might imagine, this only raised our level of concern and anxiety.
Well, today we had our appointment with the eye doctor and Benjamin passed with flying colors! The neural pathways are communicating with one another, the optic nerve is relaying information appropriately. There is some far sightedness, but that's completely typical for a 2 month old. The doctor suggested his delay was due to his low birth weight (5 lb 9oz.) and that he will catch up eventually. We've been praying fervently and God answered our prayers.
Prior to the appointment I had planned on taking pictures to explain our appointment. However, I only captured 1 shot which I took prior to us leaving the house. The appointment wound up being a whirlwind of activity which required me to hold Benjamin the entire time leaving no opportunities to take pictures. So, I'll leave you with pictures of our little guy...sleeping peacefully and probably thinking how foolish we were to be so afraid.